3 weeks from tomorrow = surgery
surgery = me being scared, nervous, frustrated, and lots of anxiety
the other night i went to the gym and i just danced in the open room they have. i just put my ipod in and improved for awhile. during one of the songs, i started to cry.. i am honestly getting so nervous about all of this. so many things could go wrong. they won't, but they could. i'm very frustrated with the recovery time and what i can't do. i can't drive for 6 weeks. i can't run or jump for 4-6 months. which means i can't dance for 4-6 months. you might as well KILL ME. i literally danced and cried that night at the gym.. i texted my mom and told her how frustrated and scared i was. that made me cry even more. this will be tough for me. really tough. I CAN DO THIS. i will need a lot of love and support from family and friends, but i know i can do this.
i want december 12th to hurry up and come, but december 13th can stay away for a little while..
p.s. i will be done with all my 2,000 hours at hair school on the 12th :)