Friday, December 30, 2011


just some inspring quotes that i like. enjoy.

"you mean the world to someone."

"if it weren't for you, someone wouldn't be living."

"someone thinks about you every night."

"if you risk nothing, you risk EVERYTHING."

"And then i realized ADVENTURE was the best wayt o learn."

"False Evidence Appearing Real."

"i could die tomorrow knowing i gave everything to make a difference."

"don't forget to fly."

"the best way to prepare for life is to begin to LIVE."

"promise me tomorrow starts with you."

we need to thank the people who impact us in any way.  live life happily.  if you were gone tomorrow would you be happy with your life?  the things you do or don't do, affect someone in some way.  find something good in EVERY person.  appreciate everyones footstep in your journey.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011


caitlin tara.

caitie is one of my very best friends.  she is such an amazing girl.  she is loyal, caring, loving, hardworking, and super funny.  i moved in with her in november.  best idea ever.  we've had some fun times.  caitie and i didn't become friends until the last month of high school.  i'm sure when people from high school see us now, they are so surprised that her and i are friends.  i didn't really know caitie that well.. and she thought i was a stuck up brat.  now that we are friends, she realized that she judged me wrong and i just come off as a very confident person.  i'm glad that is all over now.  i honestly don't know what i would do without caitie's friendship.  she came into my life when i needed her most, and she hasn't left.  i know that our friendship will be a life long friendship.  i wonder how things would be different if we had been friends in high school.  i don't know that we'd be as close as we are now.  i'm thankful for this beautiful red headed girl that i have in my life.  i can never thank her enough for all she has done for me.  we've made some great memories and more are on their way.  caitlin tara, you are incredible. thank you. i love you :)
we were matching for church one day.. accident i swear.

going to church!

cruisin in the truck
yes.. i know. weirdest combo ever. she's a strang one;)

we have candy runs sometimes.
yogurt land :)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

recovery road.

hello bloggers. missed me? didn't think so. haha but i'm back.  i had surgery a week ago today.  and now i'm on the road to recovery.  everything went well with the surgery.  there was only one problem.  i had to get an epidural.  yes, epidural. and i didn't even have a baby!! ouch.. it took the anesthesiologist about an HOUR to put it in.  that shouldn't happen. it doesn't happen.  i don't even remember longer than 5 minutes of it.  they sedated me more and more i think.  so they cut me open and peeled away muscles, ligaments, etc, and cut my bone in 3 different places and then screwed it in place and sewed me up.  you can see the x-ray below. remember that blood i donated to myself before surgery? well we used to pints of it.  i had 2 blood transfusions after surgery.  they made such a big difference.  i had more energy and i actually had color back in my face.  i had lots of visitors at the hospital.  someone was with me every single minute.  i loved that.  you know kirst, my best friend, well she wasn't suppose to come home from cedar till saturday.  she showed up on wednesday at the hospital and surprised me! it was the BEST suprpirse!!  caitie stayed over night with me on tuesday night, kirst stayed wednesday night, and lace stayed thursday night.  i have the greatest friends.  carlee came and saw me a few times.  one of the times she gave me a manicure. how cute! i got to go home on friday night.  i was more than ready to be home.  now i've just been in bed.  my days consist of sleeping, reading, watching movies, and sometimes eating.  my meds have taken away my appetite though.  good diet plan right? ha you'd think so.  but nope. the doctor says i have to eat.  so it's hard to do that. i look at food and i wanna throw up.  so i'm workin on it.  i love visitors, so if you are bored, come visit me :) this will be a long road, but i can do it.  i just need the love and support from family and friends.  which i am getting and love it. i will try and blog some more now that i just sit around all day.  but i might not have too much to say haha. we will see. wish me luck and a get well soon!

i look so sick :( best friends :)

mani :)

x-ray. 4 big screws. 1 small screw.
best friend.

cooper. al. kirst.

Monday, December 5, 2011

not ready.

one week from tomorrow.  am i freaking out? a little bit. okay, maybe a lot..  someone asked me the other day if i've had a crying day for it all yet. and i have. but i think i need another one.  i can honestly say that i have never been this nervous or scared for anything in my entire life. i'm going to need all the love, prayers, and support i can get.  so please, send them this way.  thanks.  i'm not ready to say bye to dancing, working out, or even walking yet. i'm not ready. but that doesn't matter, cause its happening. ugh.

Friday, December 2, 2011


Of course I like the whole single, party, fun thing.
But sometimes, I wouldn't mind the whole cuddling, holding hands, I'm-his-girl thing.

yup thats how i'm feelin right about now.. especailly working in the mall, i see SO MANY couples.  i kinda would like that to be me.. is that dumb? lets just say i'm pretty jelly (jealous) of all those cute girls with the cute guys holding their hand.. oh well. i'm still waiting. 

but... HEY! YOU! UP THERE! YEAH YOU, i'm ready.