Wednesday, March 25, 2015

thoughts.

4 more weeks until graduation! That feels so good to say. I won't believe it until it actually happens. We are hoping that we find out where Goodyear is sending us before graduation gets here. Cross your fingers for Lawton, Oklahoma! That's where we've been hoping and praying for.

I've been so sick of my hair lately.. It's finally long again and I have been so lazy with it. I also feel like my hair has gotten a lot more thin over the last couple of years.. (probably from all the crazy things I did to it in hair school! yikes.) I am always pulling it up or braiding it. I want to cut it so bad. Hold back on the NO'S!! I don't want to take a lot off, just a few inches. I want to have to do my hair everyday. Obviously I want it long enough to pull up when I'm working out. But I want it to have a style. It's just long, stringy, and flat right now and I'm not loving it. So stay tuned to see if I actually go through with it. Hopefully I can get someone to do it soon! Hair always grows back right?! Right.

This is such a random post. Really I'm just getting some things out of my head and on the screen. Excuse all my word vomit right now.

There are some things in life that I am so ready to leave behind and move on with.. and other things that I am going to have a hard time leaving behind.. These last few months have definitely been bitter sweet. I just keep thinking about leaving and everything that comes with it.

Happy hump day bloggers!

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

denial.

I can't believe that in 7 short weeks my husband will be graduating! It really is the best feeling ever. I've been getting him through school these last 3 years. He has also been working part time. I am very excited for him to be done with school and have a real adult job where he will be making real money. We will hopefully find out this month where GoodYear will be sending us. Possibly won't find out until April... but i'm keeping my fingers crossed it's this month! Not that finding out sooner changes anything.. except it would help with my anxiety. I really am just so anxious to know where we will be spending the next year of our lives. I honestly think I am in denial. It doesn't feel real or like it's going to actually happen. Last May when we moved to Ohio I was more calm about everything because I knew the timeline and I knew  we would be back home in August. This time around I don't know hardly anything. I don't know where or when or for how long. I just know we might not be back in Utah for many years, if not ever. Obviously we will be back to visit. A lot!! I am ready for this new adventure though. Life is starting to become more "Adult Like". (does that even make sense? I can't explain that any further..) I'm definitely nervous to pack up and leave everything behind. My family, friends, jobs, clients, etc. Literally everything. But it's all for a good purpose and I could't be more proud of my husband and all his hard work to get where he's at. I think the hardest part is going to be leaving my family. I'm very close to both my mom and dad and my brothers. I'm such a daddy's girl. I go over to my parents a couple times a week. Sometimes just to chat about nothing and everything at the same time. I've grown so close with my parents and now I have to leave them. (I can do this!) Thank goodness for FaceTime right?! I'm also nervous about making new friends. Finding a new job. I'm hoping there will be a cute, nice salon close by to work at. Keep your fingers crossed for me! I'm nervous about not seeing my family whenever I want to. And can we talk about plane tickets?! Ugh. So expensive these days. Thumbs down for that. Maybe we need to get a Skymiles card and start racking up points!

If you've ever packed up, moved, left everything behind and have some advice for me, then please share! I'd love to hear about everything.